Tuesday, November 13, 2012


I have a little chit chat about my future confusion with Kathy Noto via blog comments. And this one time i babbled about everything i feel in one of my comments at her blog. When i was writing, i totally got lost in it and when i clicked 'publish' it turned out to be a very long comment, lol. So i decided to post it here.

I've talked to my parents months ago and they finally accept my decision for not being a doctor. i will graduate in about 2 months if my thesis finishes in time. i'll become bachelor of medicine, not doctor. so i refuse to become an intern in the hospital, and refuse the chance of me being a doctor.

i know my parents understand what i'm feeling now, but i know deep down they want me to be a doctor. at least i have something i can count on when my business fails, which i really hope it won't. you see, my father is a high achiever in life. he works his ass off his whole life. he received full scholarship back when he was still in university. he's a very dedicating man, and he finishes what he have started. i know he want me to be like him, to have a well respected profession, to have a stable life. but honestly, i'm not a high achiever, and i know i'm a quitter. because everytime things get rough, i just simply quit. but i feel this is an important life decision, and i can't just follow my gut to quit and follow my passion.

i know my passion will not ever be dead, and i know i will not quit this time because i've been through a lot in this business and i'm still standing tall. but there's this little doubt in my head. it keeps telling me that one day i'll finally quit this too, because that's what i normally do. and future frightens me, what will happen after i reach my goals. i know if business is what i choose then, then my life will never be stable.

being a doctor it's quite promising, but it's really hard to be a doctor these days. so many new regulations and it's so hard to get into specialization school. if you're only a general doctor, it's nothing, really. there's so many of those who want to be a doctor, but can't because of the competition is inevitable these days. and i'm not one of those who want to be doctors so badly. so i refuse to work hard to get there, because that's not what i want.

i will do anything for my passion, that i know. but the business world is scary too. i really wish time machine is real, so i could see what's my future like :(

Hnm sweater / Picnic snake skin print top /  local store jeans / unbranded neclace / Elle leather bag / Forever21 sunglasses



life is style said...

beautiful :)

Carla said...

Good luck finishing school and with your dreams. It's hard to make that type of decision, but I strongly believe in going for your dreams and if you don't give up, somehow they will all come true. - Carla

Monic said...

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Ice Pandora said...

Amazing look! I love
how many colors are
combined together c:
Nice necklace as well!


yunita elisabeth said...

SO pretty! love the sweater <3


Zahra N Damayanti said...

hi kak febri,
i just read this and it is happening to me right now. if you remember, i wrote you message in fb when you were in first semester i guess, and i was in my last year of school.
i just knew that i want to study other thing and it seems a lil bit too late to move. but i don't want to give up to pursue what i love to do, even though i'm afraid it's just what i want now and someday i'll regret it.
a friend said tome that afraid is good, it means we're about to do/beginn something big. so keep your spirit kak! i believe your own decision is the best for you. i'm so proud to see your bravery of making such a decision and i believe you'll reach your dream career! :)

Monia. said...

great style!:D

Lita said...

Amazing look! love your orange jeans!

Sakuranko said...

Beautiful Outfit! I like it your accesories, your orange pant and yoursunglasses! Really cute! coloful but elegant!


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Giulia Tomaselli said...


Kat said...

you look sooo lovely!!! wonderful look :)


utkaaa said...

fantastic look! I love your necklace and sweater ♥ XOXO

mademoiselle mode said...

I really love your pants !


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Elsha Bodily said...

There's no way you won't succeed girl! I can't get over how amazing your style is

Denisa said...

You look amazing, so nice pics.


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Diana said...

So stunning! Love the look!

kudels said...

You are so pretty!:)

Gabriele said...

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Francesca Romana Capizzi said...

Aw bag!
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Bloglovin'esome outfit!! I love that

Sofia said...

Great look!


Diana Marks said...

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Kinga Więcek said...

You are very lovely :)

Katie said...

i love the color of your pants! what a great outfit!

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Kell said...

You're brave for following your passion. It's the right decision.

And I love your outfit :)

Roxii said...

I love your hair, i love the length and how straight it is! It is such a pretty colour :)

Roxii said...

I love your hair, i love the length and how straight it is! It is such a pretty colour :)

Sam said...

I would also love to have a time machine. You should do what you're passionate about hun, it will make you happy. All the best. Love your incredible style, this outfit is fantastic!

Ashley of Southern (California) Belle said...

You are so very beautiful! Don't worry too much about not being a doctor, your parents will be okay over time. And you are totally right, being a doctor isn't all it's cracked up to be these days. They don't make as much money as they used to. Plus, having a bachelors in medicine is quite an accomplishment!



Southern (California) Belle

Ruby and Rosa said...

yep! we are sisters :D
uhmmm maybe korean or else ? aahhahaha

anyway, if there's a time machine, you still need to make your own choice in every possibilities. because, they are who made your future.
good luck with your studies! and jia you! :D

and i love your orange pants, white sweater, and your totally look! ❤

Amy Fashion Blog said...

cute outfit

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Suzie Q said...

Love the orange pants and the print blouse that you paired it with. Great outfit!

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Anonymous said...

I'm glad you decided to do what you want. It must have been hard to tell your parents, but you did the right thing and they will understand i'm sure. With parents that care so much, you will always have a good promising future. No need for a time machine ;)
Lovely outfit too by the way.

Well... said...

Aw girl, I know how you feel...sometimes I just want to GET there to my future so I don't have to live in this suspense of not knowing if I'm taking the right path. But the whole point of getting to that destination is taking a journey. And no matter what, I can tell you one thing about your future - you'll fabulous ;)
Haha, I love the bold orange jeans, they look amazing on you!

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regina stacia abigail said...

hay you look amazing and pwetty! i love the way you wear your jeans! me too:( i havent watch skyfall yet:(

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Anonymous said...

nice outfits. love the leather bag!
how it perfects to you ;)
xo, I

Izzy said...

you're very brave for not going ahead with what your parents told you to do! my parents always wanted me to be either a doctor or a lawyer, and although I'm doing my bit with a 5 year law degree I'm not going to go ahead and practice law afterwards. I understand about failing parents' high expectations, but in the end you really can't force yourself to do something you don't really want. good luck with everything! <3

Calita Hin said...

goodluck with ur future, i hope u'll get everything best :) i love this look btw :)

Rosalinda Tjioe said...

Such a stunning outfit! Looks like you really are having a hard time making a decision, hope you choose the right one! Wish you all the best :) xx


Carolyna said...

another amazing outfit, great colours mix and this necklace

Ali Hval said...

If you do something you love, then you shouldn't have to worry about the future--so many people don't even know what they want to do! So be positive. :)

Really adore that necklace of yours. Chin up, buttercup!

The Daydreamer said...

I've always loved the combination of sweater+shirt, plus, the bright coloured jeans successfuly added those fun feelings when I see this outfit! cool! and good luck on your business too :)

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Instant Milk said...

Loved your blog hun, seriously! Keep up the great work over here.
Come by and let's follow each other! Would love to stay in touch! xx

Caitie Schlisserman said...

Beautiful outfit! It's scary to think about your future and you want to make your parents proud of you but you also have to do what's best for you and what YOU want. It is YOUR life afterall! Even if your parents aren't 100% behind you, they are your parents and will eventually come around!


Camila Faria said...

I think we should always follow our dreams! Good luck with yours!

Clara Angwen Widjaya said...

You must have had a hard time. I hope it's the best for you. Good luck! :)

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Sandra Leiva said...

Love your necklace! <3

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Always Maylee said...

You look gorgeous. I LOVE the orange pants. It's scary sometimes not knowing what your future holds, but it's the journey that makes life interesting and fun. I think you will find your way, you just have to believe that you are on the right path! :)

xo, Yi-chia
Always Maylee

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BeSugarandSpice said...

Los pantalones son muy bonitos, te quedan muy bien.
Besos guapa

BeSugarandSpice said...

Los pantalones son muy bonitos, te quedan muy bien.
Besos guapa

BeSugarandSpice said...

Los pantalones son muy bonitos, te quedan muy bien.
Besos guapa

M* said...

life is always complicated, don't be silly and do what you want and whatever makes you feel confident and happy :)

lovely style.

Ladyulia said...

what a lovely collar!

Yulia Rahmawati

Eva Silviana said...

Super in love with your printed shirt! <3<3

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Jessica said...

yea i think everyone goes through this at some point, and in the end you have to choose what you would be happy doing despite what you think might happen, because you can't control the future :)


Claireta Teressa said...

you look adorable!


Dreamer Anete said...

So amazing! :)
Would you like to follow each other?

Rebecca Miriam said...

i love the ocean as well! lovely pictures :)

xx, rebecca

Wynne Prasetyo said...

you're beautiful and your taste is really something! so glad to know that your parents accept your decision not to become a doctor, i can only imagine how hard of a move it must've been for them. what is your passion anyway?


Ellyzabeth Tanaya said...

Super like your outfit ci feb. about your decision, biarlah waktu berjalan, pasti ci feb bakal tau tujuan ci feb mau kemana :) tapi aku mau tanya knp dl cici ga lgsg masuk kedokteran? :))

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BBella said...

Heey I love your blog :) would you like to follow each other?

xx BBella

sabrina maida said...

you're beautiful and your taste is really stunning! im glad to know that your parents accept your decision not to become a doctor, but why not the first,hehe anw i wish the best for your passion. and wanna follow each other? :D

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Tie Bow-tie said...

I hope you'll find your try way in life!

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Adeayu said...

I love your jeans' color :D
can't wait for you to be a bachelor of medicine.
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Ileana said...

Love the pants! So original!


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Chyrel Gomez said...

I honestly think we should pursue the things we really love and passionate about. =)

kacamatamia said...

Yeah, I kinda understand how it feels. since we're grown up and have our own choices in life. We don't wanna loose ourselves in what other people called 'a good life' but there's a little fear in taking our choice. There's a part of us that keep saying: what if I fail in this?

Anyway, I super love the color of ur jeans :) following ur blog

Visceral Maze said...

you look lovely. I think you made a wise decision. Medicine is definitely not the field for everyone. You are going to be just fine :)